Christmas Time

by LaDeija Lewis

Christmas is the happiest season,

But only few really know the reason.

We celebrate the Christ,

The one born to be a sacrifice.

Now we decorate a tree,

While we sing happily.

But some are alone,

Lost without a home.

But we take for granted,

How good we have it.

This time isn't about presents.

It's about your family's presence.

The true meaning of Christmas

Is celebrating Jesus.

Have you ever fell for some that was taken? I did and trust me I know it's miserable. It's like when you looking for the perfect car and you see it. You fall in love with it and then you save up just enough money to get it. Then you come back and it has a sold sign on it. You see, I started liking him a year ago and this year I finally get enough courage to pursue him and then he gets a girlfriend, or at least that's what everyone tells me. I hope that he is happy. I know it hurts. It feels like someone stole him from me. To all the girls out there who are in my predicament, I just want you to know you are not alone and it is not worth your life.  I felt like that and I know I'm know not the only one. So if you feel the way I do get help, talk to a counselor, or talk to your crush. I know it's hard but you can just keep it inside. 

P.S. Don't be a shy reader. Voice your opinoin. I would love to hear it. Til next time.

Hey Readers,

I got a question for all of you. Which one of this story ideas would you like to become a book?

Comment A, B, or C.

A.) A preppy girl and science nerd get parternered up in psychology class for a project on attraction and relationships.

B.) A young girl has a crush on the teacher that ends up raping her.

C.) A 20 year old CEO has to choose between saving his girlfriend, or his brother.

The Duff

Be who you are!

I'm Back

Hi out there,

I am sorry my last post was in the summer. Now it is winter, maybe my decision to come out of hibernation will spark some snow so that I can stay home and work on a novel of something. This post isn't going to be long because as an average teenage I have chores to do. People everywhere say "Everything that glitters ain't gold", but I just found the whole quote and I wanted to share it with you before I went to sleep. Here it is:

“All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.

From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.” 
― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring

I think it contradicts the first quote and what half of human life thinks. To me this quotes is saying what we all wish to be true, even though we know it's not. We all want this fairytale ending. It will come to some of us, but not all. Especially if we don't try. I know for a fact if we don't try we fail. I have failed allot of things because I was to afraid to really try and do my best. I'm weird. I'm afraid that my best isn't good enough. So I half way prepare for everything and walk out saying that I don't care about anything. That has been my roadblock for years but it doesn't have to be your's. Be like the Hulk and push it out your way. Thanks for reading and don't be shy my voice is your voice.
REMEMBER WHO SAY!?!

Lost and Confused

Hi readers,

In a sea of people, yet I feel alone.

Have you ever felt like the whole world got on a train and left you stranded? If you have, you know how I feel. Right now I don't understand anything. The world leaves me lonely, confused, and a little frustrated. I don't know when it will get better. People keep saying it will, but it's hard to believe when the whole world seems to know something you don't. I'm trying to figure out what I'm missing. I have a good life. Everything seems awesome right now but it feels like I'm missing something. I'm so jealous because everybody else understands life or at least have a good handling on it. When will I understand? When will I get my aha moment? At one point I thought I had it figured out, then life threw me a curve ball and I'm starting to strike out. I don't know if I'm going to get off the bench again. I might be on the bench of life for a while. I got to get my head in the game. I just don't know how life was so simple when my biggest problem was if I was going to get a bad grade in class that day. Now, I think now I'm getting a bad grade in life. I don't understand why or how. I didn't even think it was possible, but seems like the worlds coming down with strange problems. I'm so used to having all these problems that I just knew how to solve. One of these days I'm going to figure it out, but right now I don't understand. Usually, I have some type of boulder in the way. I just knew how to push but now there's a super heavy boulder, that I stopped trying to push, you would think I'd be happy, right? Everything is coming tumbling down with crazy things going wrong. Is this supposed to be my happy moment? Is this supposed to be my moment? When will I know when my moment will come? I have been  turning the lemons into  lemonade for so long I don't know when it will be over. Everybody's trying to silence me but my voice can not be silenced. Everyone says I'm overreacting and being a drama queen. I don't understand how I'm overreacting. I don't understand this anymore. I used to be this perfect little girl that no one was mean to. What happened to the backbone? I seem like somebody else is taking my place. Have I been replaced? I thought I was irreplaceable. I guess I was wrong. I used to be an A B honor roll student but now I'm getting C's and B's and barely getting that. Everyone compares me to what used to be. Maybe, I want to find my destiny. Maybe, I just don't want to be that girl anymore. Although she seems perfect, she was under so much pressure. She talked to no one.  She didn't have friends because of her depression and she pretended to be who she is not. She might have seen perfect on the outside but inside she was torturing herself... I was torturing myself, suffocating myself in the sea of depression, pretending the world had happily ever afters but it doesn't it's a twisted paradise. I didn't know how to handle it so I make myself stay in my own world but that world isn't working out anymore. I leave you lost and confused wondering who I am now. I will figure it out.

Good luck on your own on your own journeys of self discovery, readers (if I have any).